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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

When Daddy's Away...

We have really missed our Daddy for the last 5 days! I was thinking with Ryan gone I'd have a little more free time, to do things like catch up on laundry, put the Christmas decorations away, and do a good deep clean on the bathrooms and kitchens - I don't know what I was thinking!!

It's all I can do to just keep on top of the everyday messes! I've been spending a lot of time scrubbing markers and crayons off the walls and furniture, pulling my children off each other and just keeping the toys picked up! I think I must not be quite as scary as Daddy, because they're being extra naughty and don't seem to want to mind AT ALL!!

I feel frazzled and over extended - but have really enjoyed all the alone time I get after the boys are in bed! It's kind of this new found since of freedom as I can watch all the sappy girl movies I want (that Ryan would never watch with me.) Plus I can wear whatever I want without thinking about the time that Ryan said he didn't like this shirt, or do my hair however I want without worring about whither of not Ryan would like it this way. Plus I don't have to wear make-up, or contacts, or even shower if I don't feel like it and I don't even feel bad! There's no guilt when I don't get everything cleaned up and dinner on the table by 6pm - I'm just doing my own thing.
I guess I never realized how much I stress about perfection - and wanting to be this great wife - which is a good goal, BUT WOW - I never realized how stressed I was about it. So it has been a nice break, and a good learning experience, but I'm ready to have Ryan come home - if only to keep my kids in line!

Tomorrow is THE day!


Anonymous said...

Hey Caranna - I love The Baby Catcher. That was quite a read. I read it in two evenings and man, if that's not motivation to work for change, I don't know what is. We've been away from our two older girls for the last three days, so I've got much catching up to do at home. You made me realize how much I do stress over the little things, so I'm going to make it a point to just play with the girls tomorrow. We need to get together!

Ravid said...

Ha ha! Hilarious. I think maybe I don't try as hard as you. The only day I put any makeup on is Sunday. But then Dave actually prefers me without makeup. He probably does prefer showers (he's nice enough not to say anything), but tough! It's hard to do all of these things at home. He's lucky if the house is clean, let alone me. :-)

Shuman X Seven said...

I am certain you stress about those things far more than Ryan. Maybe you should give yourself a break more often. The boys will be grown before you know it. I am sure Ryan won't mind you letting a few things slide once in a while. Besides, if you are always perfect, then how is he suppose to notice when you are improving??? You are making his job too hard too! Trying to be perfect onlu leads to mental break downs!Trust me...... I speak from experience.

What a good learning experience. Your boys are darling. I love the marker photo, I have a couple of similar shots, you either have to laugh or cry in times like that!

Caranna said...

And this was After he'd tried to wash it off! - And My walls looked a lot worse that he did.
I think the thing that bothered me most about the marker mess was that the markers had been on top of the fridge! I'm not sure how I feel about having such proficient climbers!
Thanks for your advice Shannon!

Sara said...

Oh my goodness, what a mess! It is kind of fun to be without hubbys for a bit, but it quickly wears off and you want them back. Funny how that happens. Glad he's coming back soon!