Still No Answers

I just got a call - from Dr. Burton himself (not his nurse!) - He said that the results of the HIDA scan looked "absolutely normal." So I guess we're back to square one...

He wanted to order some more blood tests to check some more things (that we haven't all ready checked in the previous panels. But I really dislike needles and want to let my arms heal a bit before I go get stabbed again. [I don't know if they could even find my veins amidst the bruises.]

I'm thinking maybe I'll try a chiropractor next and see what that does. Does anyone know of a good one in Pocatello or Chubbuck?

Radiation is BAD!

This morning we went in for a HIDA scan.
We took the boys to my Aunt Bonnie around 8:00 - my appointment was at 8:15.
They wouldn't let Ryan come with me, because they didn't want to expose him to the radiation (what about me!?)
So he sat in the waiting room, read magazines and watched the "Today Show."
First the Dr. took me to a room with a recliner - he put an IV in my arm and then started feeding a radioactive isotope into my arm. He was talking to me the whole time - explaining the procedure and the function of the gallbladder.
All of a sudden I raised my hand and interrupted him - he said "What?" and I said "I think I'm going to faint!" he kind of chuckled and said "That's why you're sitting down instead of standing up." he said it so simple and matter of fact, but I felt like he was talking down to me like 'duh, of course you feel faint.'
He finished pushing in that tube of isotope and then went and got me a wet wash cloth to hold to my face while he put in two more tubes.
He let me sit for a minute before leading me to another room where they keep the HIDA scan machine. I laid on a bed that was raised up as the rectangular machine was lowered to rest about 6 inches off my abdomen.
Then I waited. I had to lay there for 35 minutes while the isotope made it's way into my gallbladder. He tilted the monitor so I could see - I saw the shape of my liver all lit up on the screen and watched as my gallbladder appeared and became larger and brighter on the screen, as it filled with the isotope.
After that part of the test the Dr. came and put more stuff in my IV - this stuff was supposed to make my gallbladder drain/empty and was by far the worst part of the test. He came in every 5 minutes and put another tube of the stuff in my IV - it made me feel very dizzy, faint and nauseated - it was no fun! - That part of the test lasted 25 minutes.
I watched on the screen as the isotope left my gallbladder and went through my intestines. It was neat to watch my body working, but it hurt and I couldn't move to make things more comfortable.
After the test I felt very sick. I was told that I had radiation poisoning but that it should wear off in a "couple of hours" now, I am just barely starting to feel more "normal" (although I still feel kind of yucky) and it's been nearly 7 hours since we finished.
So - radiation is bad! And can make you sick!

I hope everyone has had a better day than mine.

It's a VERY Special Day!

This was me taken 6 years ago today. My awesome roommate Meikjn and I bought these pants at TJ Maxx for 3.99 And decided we were super cool - we matched and everything!
We went to a dance and were the life of the party :)
That was the night I met Ryan -

This dance was a "Feed the 5,000" dance. We had to take a can of food to get it. The dance was not well publicized. I vaguely remembered hearing about it in the announcements at church. So we got dressed up, took our chances and headed up to the stake center on the hill.
There were only a hand full of people at the dance. It appeared that people would show up, poke their heads in, think "this is lame" and leave. But that all changed once Meikjn and I showed up in our magic pants!
My buddy Tarron was D.J.ing that night - I had him put on some good salsa music, dragged him away from his D.J. spot and we tore up the dance floor (I used to be so cool!!) That seemed to do the trick, people started dancing and everyone who showed up from that point on stayed!
There were probably about 15 people there total. But we had a blast!! Meikjn and I got the majority of the male attention - because we're so cool!
Once the clock struck 12:00 we all had to leave the church, but we were having so much fun that we weren't ready to go home.
We all decided to watch a movie at Jamie's house, but no one knew where Jamie's house was so we met at Wal*Mart. I took the free way, everyone else came down Yellowstone and we: Meikjn, Dave and I beat them by a good 5 minutes!
We went in to buy ice cream Ryan gave me a piggy back ride through the store - and then we went to Jamie's house ate the ice cream and watched "Monster's Inc." Through the whole movie Ryan was pretty cuddly with my roommate.
When we finally headed home, around 4am, Ryan ran out to my car and asked Meikjn for our phone number. She couldn't remember it so she looked at me and I mumbled the number. I was very tired, I said it fast and slurred it together. Neither of us thought he'd remember it in a million years! He didn't even write it down!
He later told me that he said it over and over to himself all the way home and wrote it down as soon as he got inside.
Meikjn got most of his attention that night, then he took both of us out a few times (the whole three some thing was kind of weird) but before long he focused all his attentions on me.

Some silly pictures taken in the dorms.

I can't believe it's been SIX years! It's the day it all started! The day that led up to our engagement, wedding, anniversaries, and children. I can't believe how much has happened since then. I love my husband more and more every day. I knew he was the one not too long after we started dating, and the longer I'm with him the more I learn about him and the more I fall in love with him all over again!

I love you Ry, Ry!

Explaining Death to a 3 year old

Last night we had a relief society activity - that went rather well, if I do say so myself ;) At that activity I learned of the death of our favorite neighbor.
Blanche Tucker lived on the corner of Main Street and Carter (only one house between hers and ours) She was very active in the church and served in the library.
Whenever Ryan and I were teaching lessons we'd go ask her for pictures or videos and were always surprised at how quickly she could find them!
Nearly every Sunday she'd see me with a crying child in my arms and she'd give me a knowing smile and say "It must be nap time."
She still drove her blue car - we were never sure it was a good idea, and always gave her plenty of room when we saw her coming - but she never drove more than 15 mph - she'd always wave as she drove by.
When I was pregnant with Oran I was put on bed rest, in those 3 weeks she stopped by 5 or 6 times to visit. Since that time she's walked to our house to say hello every couple of weeks.
We were always surprised with her dedication to keeping her yard beautiful, we'd see her out working in her yard in her large brimmed hat and over sized gloves and could help but smile.
Blanche's granddaughter, Helen, is a good friend of ours and she'd often ask us how her grandma was doing, and if we could keep and eye on her. She'd fallen a few times, but didn't want anyone to know. Her son-in-law came and put a ramp on the front of the house, but she was stubbornly independent and wouldn't use it. After the ramp we'd see her exiting her house, and walking down the steps on the side of the house.
She was spunky and my kids really liked her.
This morning before preschool I was telling Canton what had happened, and he wouldn't believe me! He kept telling me I was wrong. "The Great-Grandma from church isn't dead!" He insisted, "I saw her at church, she smiled at me and she was ALIVE!!!"
In a clam voice I tried to tell him that she went to live with Heavenly Father, and she left after we saw her last. But the more I tried to reason with him the more upset and argumentative he got.
I decided to let the matter drop and we finished getting ready for school. As we walked out the door he pointed down the street to the blue, frost covered car and said - "There's Great-Grandma's car! She still lives in her house, and she really loves me!"
Oh well, I guess he can think what he wants.

Here's the obituary:
Blanche V. Tucker, 86, Pocatello, died Sunday morning, February 15, 2009 at her home.
She was born on May 24, 1922 at Bliss, Idaho to Henry and Blanche Thayer Hite where Blanche attended schools. She married Wilbur V. Tucker on October 6, 1940. Their marriage was later solemnized in the Idaho Falls L.D.S. Temple. Wilbur preceded her in death on April 8, 1989. Blanche was Co-Owner with her husband of Tucker’s Appliance Service Center. In 1985 they sold the business to their son, Doug. She loved and enjoyed traveling and was always kind and giving to her neighbors, her children and grandchildren and to all those she met. Blanche was a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and served as the Ward Librarian for 40 years.
She is survived by two sons, Richard A. and Douglas D. Tucker; one daughter, Linda L. Misner, all of Pocatello . Nine Grandchildren and Six Great Grandchildren. A brother, Ralph Hite, Pocatello; three sisters, Rosie Lish, Pocatello; Myrtle Lish, King Hill; and Louise Newbern, Pocatello. She was preceded in death besides her husband, by her parents, a grandson, Willie Misner and a brother Donald.
Funeral services will be held on Friday, February 20, 2009 at 2:00 p.m. in the City Creek L.D.S. Ward Chapel with Bishop John Higgins conducting. The family will receive friends from 7-9 p.m. Thursday evening in the Cornelison-Henderson Funeral Home and from 1:00 - 1:45 p.m. at the Church on Friday. Burial will be in the Mountain View Cemetery, Pocatello. Memorials may be given in Blanche’s memory to the Bannock Humane Society, 850 Barton Road, Pocatello, Idaho 83204. Arrangements are under the direction of the Cornelison ~ Henderson Funeral Home, 431 N. 15th Ave., Pocatello. Online guest book and condolences available at www.cornelisonfh.com.

Lovey Dovey Celebrations

For Valentine's Day our ward had a couple's only Sweet Heart Ball. Ryan and I weren't planning to go because I haven't been feeling well, but after feeling pretty good for two days in a row we decided it would be fun to attend. So, Thursday evening I called around trying to find a babysitter, without any luck, and thought, maybe we'll just stay home. But Friday morning I tried one more.

Paul FitzSimon is our new home teacher. January was his first month with us. After one of our doctor appointments Ryan and I stopped at Albertson's to pick up a few things and to delay picking up our kids. While we were there we ran into Brother FitzSimon and his step-daughter Tristan. When we told them that I'd been ill Tristan quickly stated "I babysit! I like to babysit and I won't even charge you, 'cause you're sick!"
So at 9:00 Friday morning I called their house. I decided that another plus for homeschooling is that you CAN call at 9am - and find a baby sitter ;). So she willingly agreed to watch our kids.
Tate, Canton and I spent all day cleaning up to get ready for the babysitter. They were all excited! Ryan went to get Tristan and we were off to the dance.
The food was really good! They had kind of an Alfredo sauce with chicken and broccoli on noodles then green salad, bread sticks and cheese cake for dessert. The cultural hall was decorated very cute! With white lights silk roses and conversation hearts on all the tables.
We were one of the first couples there so we had our picture taken while there was no line, then had our choice of tables. Soon Aaron and Laura joined us, and then Joe and Kiri - so I guess we're cool enough to be at the "young table."
We played a little game it was a sheet of paper with two columns. Questions for the girls on the left and questions for the guys on the right. You were to fill out the questions how you would answer them, then fill in the questions in the other column the way that you think your spouse would answer them.
Ryan and I didn't do so great. We only matched on 8 out of 22, (that's 36%!). I had a hard time coming up with answers for my questions, but Ryan had great answers that made me say "Oh, yeah!" and "That's a good one" or "I like your answer better than mine!" so I guess Ryan knows me better than I know myself!
Then we danced to some sappy slow songs. Ryan gets self conscious because he doesn't know how to dance and gets extra silly trying to make everyone else on the dance floor laugh... All while dragging me along, silly husband!

We even had cheesy dance photos taken. Where they make you stand side by side, claps hands in front "her hand on top please... now tilt your heads together... perfect" *click* Just like high school! :P
Here is our super cheesy dance photo:
Sweet Heart Ball 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009

Our kids had fun with Tristan. I kept telling them "We have to clean our house so the baby sitter can come." So the next morning Canton woke me up with the question, "If we clean our house can the baby sitter come back?" So I guess they had a good time.
I just wish I could find as good a babysitter as I was! I'd take my backpack full of games and new stories - I'd plan activities and craft projects and rarely turned on the TV - there were a few times when I brought a special movie, but other than that I'd only turn it on after the kids were in bed, but I'd usually bring homework or a book to read instead.
Ryan was trying to explain to Tristan how the work all of our remotes, what controls the TV, the VCR, the Speakers, the DVD player (it really is quite complicated) and she laughed and said, "If I can't figure it out, I'll just spend the whole time 'texting'." Is that supposed to help me feel confident in her abilities as a babysitter!!?
When we got home the house was a mess! All the lights were off, but everyone was laying in a pile of blankets watching a movie. I guess I can't complain, my kids were safe and they had fun - but it would have been nice if I had come home to a clean house, and sleeping kids. But you can't have everything - and not everyone can be as awesome as me! :P

As for Valentine's Day, Ryan had to work until 8:30. But I was able to get the boys bathed and in bed before he came home. So we could have a nice dinner and spend some time together, it was very nice. He brought me a candy bar and some ice cream and said "Please don't snicker" (as he handed me a Snicker's bar) "But I call dibs on you" (as he handed me some Dibbs ice cream.) Kind of silly, but he thought of me!

A Valentine's Day to remember

I know I've posted lots of old pictures lately - but I've been feeling extra nostalgic - I don't know why. So:

6 years ago today was my very last Valentine's Day as a single lady! My last "single's awareness day" so to speak. Ryan and I met the very next week - and the rest is history!

Valentine's Day Dance 2003 "00-7"
The Swing Club
Jared Fawcett, Tarron Wartonbe, Jared Peterson, Kurtis Hall, Shawn Heubscher, Ashley Maughan, Kaylene Collins, Janae Wilde, Caranna White, and April Wilson

This picture was taken February 14, 2003 at an institute dance. The theme was 00-7 - and very James Bondsy - I have no idea what James Bond has to do with Valentine's Day: at least not anything very church worthy ;)
Funny thing is Ryan was at this dance too, but I didn't meet him, I don't remember seeing him there, but he remembers me being danced all around the floor by these other Ballroom nerds (pictured above) I guess knowing how to dance gets you noticed in a crowded room full of single people!
I miss those days, but in recent reflection have decided that if I went back and did it all again there's not a single thing I would change. I'm so happy with the way things turned out! If I'd made different choices or even timed things differently I don't know if I'd have my wonderful husband or all three of my amazing children!
So I miss being single, going on dates, and busting my move on the dance floor, but I wouldn't change the way my life is now for anything!
I hope everyone has a fantastic Valentine's Day! Be you single, married or somewhere in between.

Flash Back

My Mom scanned and posted these on our family website. I thought they were so much fun, that I just couldn't resist!
Now, for your entertainment - a blast from the past! Watch as my family grows and changes before your eyes ;)

[If you can't tell, I'm #4]







Isn't it fun to look at old pictures!? I love it!

See what they're up to now! Gavin, Alayna, Brady, Caranna, and Quinten

I'm tired of docotors

Yesterday was an extra rough day for me. We had an ultrasound appointment at 8:30 in the morning. We took the boys to visit Laura, she lives two blocks away and was nice enough to offer to help us out - then we went up the hill to Portneuf Imaging - they did an ultrasound of the Right Upper quadrant - which included liver, gallbladder, pancreas, and kidney - I was already hurting and it didn't help to have the ultrasound tech. jabbing and digging to get all the pictures she wanted (although she was very nice to us) So, I hurt a lot yesterday! I took two naps! One from 10-11:30 and the other from 2 - 4, my afternoon nap seemed to get rid of my headache, which was nice.

Our boys had fun playing with Boyd and Blyth (Laura's kids) and they made Valentines for Ryan and I. Which I thought was sweet.

I have felt so yucko for lazing around for so long, so the other day I decided I was going to exercise. I started just walking around my house, then I started jogging. When that got boring I started to dance. I did a little Cha-Cha, then some Salsa, Swing, Lindy, and Jive. I had fun, but soon felt dizzy and was loosing my balance so I stopped dancing and started walking again. It was probably only 20 - 25 minutes of light aerobic work: nothing like I have been used to doing. And for the rest of the day I had terrible chest pains, I could hardly breathe, and I was very dizzy and light headed. So I sat on the couch, unable to move much for the rest of the evening, Ryan told me I was dumb for trying to exercise - and I guess I agree, if it causes such reactions.
So, I have gone back to taking in easy and have decided to slowly add more movement. Yesterday the boys and I went for a walk, I was feeling a little stir crazy, and the kids don't like to be pent up so much. Ryan glared at me and gave me disapproving looks but I assured him I wouldn't do anything strenuous and took my cell phone just so he'd feel better.
The whole thing makes me rather grumpy! This has really hampered my fitness goals!

On our walk yesterday afternoon the boys were mad at me for not letting them play at the park that was still mostly covered in snow, and the other parts were wet and muddy.
The rest of the way home Tate was talking about making a playground at our house with sand, and green grass - that was WARM!
His little inventor brain went to work trying to decide how to make that happen... "We could put a heater outside... but out side is too big...Maybe if we built a wall...but it would need lots of windows so the sun would shine and make the grass grow..." By the time we got home our fingers, ears and noses were rosy and Tate had formulated a plan.
When I made him come inside rather than start building he cried, "Mom, I'm so sad, because you won't let me build my playground! You never be nice to me!!!"
I tried telling Tate that he needed blue prints, supplies, a permit, and that Dad needed to be home to help him. But he continued to gripe and complain until dinner time. I guess feeding him made him forget about his project idea.
Today he has decided that he wants to build a robot to be a babysitter so Daddy and I can go on a date. I don't know if that one's going to work out either ;)

I got a call from Dr. Clifford's office this morning: the ultrasound didn't show anything abnormal. So all my suffering was for nothing ;P

Is there a Difference?

What exactly is the difference between "taking it easy" and wasting time? I'm trying to be obedient to my husband and the doctors that have told me to "take it easy" and not do anything to "aggravate my condition" until we can figure out exactly what that condition is!
But after sitting in front of the computer for nearly 2 hours catching up on everyone else's blog, it feels an awful lot like 'time wasting' so where is the line exactly?

But as long as I'm sitting here - I might as we play along with some of these silly "Tags"

High School Tag

1. DID YOU DATE SOMEONE FROM YOUR SCHOOL? Of course, isn't that where the whole dating experience starts!?

2.WHAT KIND OF CAR DID YOU DRIVE? "Sunny" the amazing Sunshine Yellow, 1978 Toyota Celica!

3. DID YOU PASS YOUR DRIVER'S LICENSE TEST YOUR FIRST TRY? Yes! - But because I was such a nervous driver, in Driver's ed, I had to drive with another licensed driver for the first 3 months after getting my license.

4. WERE YOU A PARTY ANIMAL? Not in the way you would think - I went to lots of parties and had lots of fun! But in Preston they were all good parties.

5. WERE YOU CONSIDERED A FLIRT? Hmm... I donno - I guess I was a flirt, but it's mostly because I was just having fun and not worrying about what everyone else thought. I didn't play favorites so much! I flirted with all the boys equally ;)

6. WERE YOU IN BAND, ORCHESTRA, OR CHOIR? Choir! I Love Choir!!

7. WERE YOU A NERD? I dunno, was I? I wasn't a nerd in the smart kid way...

8. WERE YOU ON ANY VARSITY TEAMS? HA! No. - But I was an avid High School sports fan, went to all the games and cheered from the students section as loud as possible!

9. DID YOU EVER GET SUSPENDED/EXPELLED? Nope

10. CAN YOU STILL SING THE FIGHT SONG? Of course!
"Oh Preston High, Oh Preston High, our mighty Blue and White!
We're on our way to victory so shout for us tonight: FIGHT, FIGHT FIGHT!!
Our team is great, our spirit's high we'll fight with all our might!
United we will stand and cheer our Preston Blue and White!
P-R-E-S-T-O-N PRESTON I-N-D-I-A-N-S INDIANS!"
Woo Hoo! I love it!

11. WHO WERE YOUR FAVORITE TEACHERS? Mrs. Seamons, Mr. Finch, Mrs. Heers, Mr. Seare (no - really) and Mrs. Baumgartener

12. WHERE DID YOU SIT FOR LUNCH? It depends on the year! I spent my time in the PIT - but also sat in the hall. My freshman year it was in the Sophomore Hall, my Sophomore year in the Jounior hall, my Jr. and Sr. year in the Senior Hall BUT ate outside when the weather was nice - I also did my runs to Big Js, The Polar Bear, Artic Circle, McDonald's, Stokes and the Pizza Stop!

13. WHAT IS YOUR SCHOOL'S FULL NAME? Preston High School - Just like Napolean Dynamite!

14. WHAT IS YOUR SCHOOL'S MASCOT AND COLORS? Indians. Blue, White and (my favorite and often forgotten) Gold!

15. WHO WAS HOMECOMING ROYALTY? I have no idea! Does anyone actually pay attention to that!?

16. IF YOU COULD GO BACK AND DO IT AGAIN WOULD YOU? You bet! I loved high school! And I was SO COOL! -Just ask me! ;)

17. WHAT DO YOU REMEMBER MOST ABOUT GRADUATION? The sudden realization that It was over! And I was no longer in high school! It came on the bus to Logan for our after graduation all night party!

18. WHERE DID YOU GO SENIOR SKIP DAY? Hmmm, I don't think I did that....

19. WERE YOU IN ANY CLUBS? French Club, Good Hands, Idaho Drug Free Youth (IDFY or "Drug Free"), Ballroom Dance, Seminary Council, A Capella Choir, Honor's Art, and of course musicals

20. HAVE YOU GAINED SOME WEIGHT SINCE THEN? Yes. Having kids did that to me. Ugh.

21.WHO WAS YOUR PROM DATE? Cody Owen! Cody's Awesome!

22. ARE YOU PLANNING ON GOING TO YOUR HIGH SCHOOL REUNION? Sure!

23. DID YOU HAVE A JOB IN HIGH SCHOOL? Yep! I worked at Stokes Thriftway, and KACH Radio!

24. WERE YOU AN HONOR STUDENT? No

25. DID YOU TAKE SEMINARY? Yes, every year, and am a proud graduate!

26. WHAT WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOUR MOST FUN TIME? Uh, it was ALL fun! The trips, the dates, the parties! The Plays, good friends, and the silly pageants! I loved it all!

27. WERE YOU CONSIDERED SHY OR OUTGOING? I guess it depends who you talk to! I think I was very out going and am surprised when I hear how reserved and shy people thought I was - how weird!

28. ANY LAST MEMORIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO SHARE? I loved my time on the High School Newspaper staff! We had SO much fun putting "The War Cry" together every week! (I miss you "Awesome McKay!")
AND I loved Art! Mr. Finch is so cool! My Sr. year in art was awesome - I got to work in oils, and since it takes so long for those to dry, Sam, Ben, Valerie, and I all had free reign of Mr. Finch's secret back room! We got to leave our paintings, all in various stages of completion, out on the eisles... I don't know why I thought it was so cool - but I felt like I had extra special privileges or something ;)
But my best memories are from practicing and performing the different musicals: My Freshman year: "Joseph, and the Amazing Technicolor Dream Coat," My Sophomore year: "The King and I," My Jr. Year: "Anything Goes," and finally my Sr. year with "Guys and Dolls."
I tag.... everyone who reads this!

Where did the week go?

This week has flown by in a dizzying hazy of pain, discomfort and far too much sleeping. I can't believe that today is Friday, and I have not accomplished a single thing in nearly a week!
My husband has been wonderful; getting up with the boys at 6:30 and letting me laze in bed until 8:30 or 9:00. This morning I woke with THE worst headache and made my way to the bathroom. I hardly recognized the person staring back at me in the mirror. My eyes seemed to have a glazed over expression, sunken into deep sockets framed in dark purple circles. My freckles standing out in stark contrast to my ghostly pale skin, all framed by my tangled, unwashed tresses. It really was a frightening sight.
I felt even worse as I surveyed the neglect of my house, and the duties, that if I had been feeling better, would have been taken care of. Mounds of laundry have taken over the basement, and heaps of dirty clothes have piled up in corners of bedrooms and bathroom.
Ryan has dutifully run the dishwasher when he's had a few extra minutes, but even with his efforts, the counters and sink of our small kitchen are cluttered with piles of unwashed dishes.
I am still not feeling any better, but Ryan has the day off, I'm sure that will help me with the kiddos, and perhaps we'll even make our way to the hospital in the search of more answers. I'm tired of feeling so - weak, and helpless. I'm the Mommy! I'm supposed to be above all illness RIGHT!?

Yesterday my kids had preschool. Ryan had to be to work at 8:00am so he made sure the boys were fed and dressed before he left, so I wouldn't have to worry about it. Canton, my 3 year old, spent the entire day in Oran's pants! I noticed before I took him to school, but didn't have the energy to find him different pants. So he wore pants sized 18 mo. that, due to the elastic, fit his waist fine, but hit him about mid shin, making them look more like Capri's than pants. Oh well! I guess that's what I get for not dressing him myself.

I sure hope I feel better soon, I'm not sure my house, or my family can handle much more time with a sick Mommy.

"Look Mom, 10:30 and still in my PJs!"




Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY Quinten!! My little brother is 23!? How did that happen! I love you and hope you have a great day! You're awesome! - Thanks for calling me last night!

"Strees, it's a killer..."

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At the end Dr. Nancy described just what I've been feeling - down to the jaw pain and the night sweats.

Sunday night Ryan rushed me to the ER, I was reluctant to go to the because "I'm only 25, I can't be having a heart attack!" But Ryan had a friend who had a heart attack at only 17 - so I guess that age is no excuse! But I was right, I wasn't having a heart attack!

I'd been having sharp pains in my chest on Tuesday, the rest of we week I was still having pains, but not as pronounced or as often, and then Sunday I was having a lot of very acute pain.

I hadn't felt well all day, after eating dinner I left the table and laid down on the couch, the pains were becoming more severe and more frequent, accompanied by pain in my arms (alternating between left and right) and numbness in my hands and fingers. The pain was so bad that I'd clutch my chest and tears would roll down my cheeks.

After my awesome husband got the boys in bed (ALL BY HIMSELF!!) I told him how I was feeling and he was very concerned, and said "We're going in, right now!" He called my Aunt Bonnie and we left for the hospital.

On our way we reviewed how I'd been feeling over the last week or 2: very dizzy, I've been loosing my balance a lot and falling into walls [it makes me feel silly] I feel light headed, and have had a lot of headaches (everyday, sometimes a couple) and I've been extra fatigued and tired.
I'd been having chest pains all week, more on Tuesday and even worse on Sunday.

But even with all of this information the Doctors seem baffled. They seem to think my condition is stress induced. I have a history of panic attacks and ulcers - they gave me some Adovan, to see if that would help. They assumed that if there was marked improvement that would prove their theory of me suffering from anxiety or large amounts of stress.

After giving me the pill we waited, in the ER for a full hour to see how it would effect me. The pain was lessened, or dulled, but I was still having pains. We left without any sure answers, but some follow up instructions.

Yesterday we went to the Pocatello Cardiovascular Clinic up on the hill. They gave me an event monitor to wear - I have to where these sticky things on my skin attached to wires that hook into the device that I clip to my pants - it's great fun :P So we're monitoring whatever issue it is that I have. In a few days we'll take the device back so they can record and review the data.

Today I'm tired, I haven't been having sharp pains in my chest, but I do have kind of a dull, achy pain in my entire chest cavity - front to back - like I've just run a marathon or done 200 push-ups.

I'm not sure if I have a heart problem or if it's something else: no matter what I could stand to loose some of my stress, but how can I do that without getting rid of my children? Hmm...

However, I did think it fitting to be talking about heart health in this, the month of February, where everything is covered in hearts and the colors pink and red.

I'm feeling pretty lousy and haven't gotten much done since Sunday (I can't believe it's already Wednesday) While "taking it easy" one doesn't accomplish much. I sure hope I feel better soon! Whether or NOT we solve the mystery!